Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Remind Me Who I Am

Jason Gray has become the soundtrack for my life. His lyrics are not complicated or overly theological. However, they speak to me. They speak directly to my situation, struggles, and fears. It has become a habit for me to listen to this song every morning during my quiet time... that's how much I love it and relate to it.

So, if you have time (and I strongly suggest you MAKE time) look up this song and others on YouTube.

Remind Me Who I Am:

When I lose my way and I forget my name: Remind me who I am.
In the mirror all I see is who I don't want to be: Remind me who I am.
In the loneliest places...
When I can't remember what grace is...

Tell me once again who I am to You.
Tell me, lest I forget, who I am to You.
That I belong to You.

When my heart is like a stone and I'm running far from home: Remind me who I am.
When I can't receive your love, afraid I'll never be enough: Remind me who I am.
If I'm your Beloved, help me believe it.

Tell me once again who I am to You.
Tell me, lest I forget, who I am to You.
That I belong to You.

I'm the one You love. I'm the one You love. That will be enough. I'm the one You love.


Ah, the soundtrack for my life.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Unsettle, Uproot, Unleash

This is the first year my resolve has been made of something more, something more than superficial "to do's" which ultimately end in failure and self-contempt.

This is the first year that I really allowed God to shape my resolutions. And the three words He gave to me, I believe are going to rock my world and change my life, my being, my ALL.

Unsettle. Uproot. Unleash.

I resolve...to allow God to unsettle me. To unsettle my fears, insecurities, and perceptions. I desire and pray for Him to unsettle the way I perceive Him, others, and myself.
1. I want to explore more deeply who my God is. I want to KNOW him, to recognize His voice more quickly and hear Him more clearly than I ever have before. I want to be awakened in the night at the sound of His call. I desire a relationship as natural as the exchange of Cardon Dioxide for Oxygen, but JUST as necessary for survival.
2. The Holy Spirit will be my guide in loving others. I will listen to what He says about the people in my world. I will respond to His promptings and be an encouragement, a safe place, a protector, and a friend. I will be the tangible example of God's love to the people who fill my life and bring such color to it. I won't merely stand on the sidelines while the battle is raging around us. I will get in the trenches with those who need me the most.
3. Through His power, He will take off the self-deprecation and fear smeared spectacles through which I have viewed myself. My Creator, Savior, and Friend will tell me who I've been, who I am, and where I am going. And, if I should forget over the course of this journey, He will remind me.

I resolve...to allow God to uproot any and all things that are not of Him. 2012 is to be a year of FREEDOM. Freedom from past pains, memories, bitterness, and judgments.
1. With Him by my side, I will face the memories and moments that have tied me to unforgiveness and insecurity.
2. God will peel off every label I've placed on myself or allowed others to place on me. The only label that remains says: Daughter of the King. I will choose to believe that I am who HE says I am... even when my feelings don't match up.

I resolve...to allow God to unleash me on the world. To unleash the joy, light, love, hope, compassion, and strength that are within me.
1. I will no longer look down, run away, or hide. I will not act as if my God made a mistake when He made me. I will be me, so that He can be glorified.
2. I will use my gifts and talents for His glory. No more comparisons. No more
excuses. From the songs I sing to the cookies I bake. And from the words I write to the ones that flow from my mouth... May He be seen in every facet of my life.
3. Through His power, I will be fierce at heart. I will love, encourage, and sacrifice for others. I will carry His light into the darkness.

So, there it is. With three words, three simple words, God has already started to rock my world. Who would have thought that an entire blog-worthy resolution could come from three words?

Will this resolution be hard? Already has been...

Will I want to take 99.9% of the things I have written back? That's a yes...

But, will it be worth it? Absolutely. This fact is undeniable.

It will be hard. I mean, without God, each of these things will be IMPOSSIBLE. However, I have to ask myself: How much is freedom worth to me? How much am I willing to risk in order to live an abundant life?

Because after all is said and done, after the introspection, the inner battles, and the breakdown comes the breakthrough...

Now, that's a resolution worth keeping.